RED CARPET DAY
Terri Morgen
author of
Playing the Genetic Lottery
Terri
Morgan is a freelance journalist who's work has appeared in dozens of
different magazines and newspapers. She is the author of four sports
biographies for young adults, and the co-author of two others. She is
the co-author of two books on photography: Photography, Take Your Best
Shot, and Capturing Childhood Memories, The Complete Photography Guide
for Parents. Playing the Genetic Lottery is her first novel. She lives
in Soquel, California.
Guest Post
When
people first discover my novel, Playing the Genetic Lottery, is about a
32-year-old wife and mother who grew up with two schizophrenic parents,
one of the first questions they have for me "is this autobiographical?"
The answer is no.
I'm
much older than Caitlin, my protagonist, I don't have any children, and
both my parents were quite sane when I was growing up. In fact, my
mother still is the picture of mental health, while my father is
deceased. The next question is generally "How did you come to write
about schizophrenia?" That answer takes a little longer to share.
I've
always been fascinated with people, human behavior, and trying to
figure out what makes people behave the way they do. One day my friend
Kathy, who is also fascinated with the same thing, called to tell me
about a woman she'd met. The woman, who was the oldest of seven children
essentially raised her six younger siblings because both their parents
had schizophrenia. Knowing that I'd written 8 non-fiction books during
my career as a freelance journalist, Kathy suggested I work with this
woman on a book. Suddenly, a light bulb went off in my head. Even though
I hadn't written anything but non-fiction for the past three decades I
said "no, I want to write a novel."
The
words came out of my mouth before I even realized what I was saying.
But once they were out I was obsessed with the idea. I started reading
everything I could get my hands on about schizophrenia, and had lots of
conversations with friends who had schizophrenic relatives. The one
person I didn't talk to, however, was Kathy's friend. I was so worried
about inadvertently stealing her story that I wouldn't even let Kathy
tell me her name. Once I had enough material I sat down and started
creating Caitlin and her world.
The
book seemed to have a mind of its own. I had a general idea of the
story I wanted to tell when I started, but the novel kept evolving as I
finished more and more chapters.
The
topic of schizophrenia wasn't completely new to me; as a journalist I
had encountered a number of mentally ill people while covering the
courts and crime beat, and writing general news stories about the
homeless in our community. I have also known several people who are
schizophrenic, and, being interested in human psychology, had done a
little research over the years just to satisfy my own curiosity. But
working on the novel taught me so much more about the disease and the
impact it has on families. It also reinforced the fact people who are
unfortunate enough to develop this devastating mental illness are
individuals, people who have families and friends who love them, and
should be respected like all the other people we share this planet with.
Terri Morgen - Author of Playing the Genetic Lottery.Read
excerpts from my novel at www.terrimorgan.net. Now available as an ebook at
smashwords www.smashwords.com/books/view/104186 and at
amazon
Excerpt from Playing the Genetic Lottery
Caitlin
Kane knows more about the impact of schizophrenia than most people
could imagine. Both her parents were afflicted with the devastating
mental illness, a disease that tends to run in families, and Caitlin and
her brother grew up trying to navigate the chaos of living with two
schizophrenics. Her tumultuous childhood left Caitlin determined to
forge a peaceful and serene life for herself. Now 32, she is living her
dream. Married to her best friend, she and her husband are raising two
bright young children in the suburbs of Seattle. While her unusual
upbringing has left Caitlin with emotional scars, she enjoys the love
and support of her extended family and her challenging career as a
pediatric nurse. But no matter how hard she tries, she can't shake the
obsessive fear that the family illness will strike again, robbing her of
her mind or stealing away the sanity of one or both of her children.
Chapter Five
School started up again, and Jon and I were at our third elementary
school. I was in second grade, and Jon was in fifth. A month or so after
classes started, Dad stopped going to work at the hardware store again
and started spending more and more time pacing through the apartment,
talking to someone neither Jon nor I could see or hear. The discussions
grew more heated as the days passed, and Dad would frighten us as he
argued with his demons, repeatedly, and loudly, insisting that they
leave him alone.
Mom,
on the other hand, was actually doing pretty well. Her doctor had her
on a new medication, and although it made her gain some weight, it
seemed to leave her healthier than she'd been for a long time. She was
painting steadily, and she started picking up dinner shifts at a Mexican
restaurant nearby. She was bringing home money again, along with left
over chips and burritos that Jon and I would take to school for lunch.
Mom
was at work, and Jon and I were in our bedroom, trying to do homework
while Dad was stomping around the apartment yelling that we had to hide.
Suddenly, the door to our bedroom was thrown open, and Dad barged in.
"Come on," he shouted. "Come quick.”
He
grabbed my arm and pulled me off my bed, my schoolbook and papers
flying off my lap. "We have to get out of here. They're after us.”
Jon's eyes widened. "Dad, calm down.”
"Don't tell me to calm down," Dad shouted. "This is an emergency. We have to get out of here. NOW!”
Dad
was dragging me out of the room. My feet went out from under me, and I
slid on my side as he pulled me towards the living room.
"Help
me Jon," I screamed. Jon rushed over and tried to knock Dad's arm away
from me to loosen his grip on my forearm. Dad lashed out with his other
arm and knocked Jon away. Jon's legs went out from under him, and he
crashed onto the floor. By the time Jon got back on his feet, Dad and I
were out the front door. Jon ran after us.
"Get
in, get in," Dad screamed as he pulled me to the car. I was screaming
too, and Jon was yelling "Stop it," at the top of his lungs. "Both of
you get in. They're coming to get us. We have to get out of here now.”
Jon
could have made a run for it while Dad was struggling to shove me into
the back seat. I would have, if I had been him. I would have run as fast
and as far as I could have from Dad's maniacal delusions. But my loyal,
protective, older brother didn't abandon me. He climbed in the back
seat behind me and pulled me close.
Dad
fired up the engine and peeled out of the parking lot in reverse. The
tires shrieked as he slammed the car into drive while we were still
backing onto the road. He floored the gas pedal, and we took off.
"They're after us, Jon, they're after us. You have to help us get away.”
Jon
must have realized arguing with Dad was futile, so he took the only
other option available, and pretended to cooperate. "OK Dad. What do you
need me to do?”
"Keep a look out the back window. See if you can spot 'em while I try to lose 'em.”
"OK Dad.”
Jon
turned and knelt on the back seat, peering over the back dash and out
the rear window. "I think it's clear Dad. There's no one behind us.”
"They're too crafty, son. They're still there. Keep looking.”
I
strapped on my seat belt, certain we were going to crash and gripped
the armrest on my left hand. I was still crying, but more quietly now,
more confident that Jon would be able to reach Dad and get us out of
this nightmare. That confidence began leaking away as Dad sped up,
blasted through stoplights, took turns without slowing down, while
continuing to rant that "They're after us, they're trying to catch us."
Jon was gripping the back of the seat, but was unable to hold on when
Dad abruptly turned to the left. He fell towards me and landed partially
sprawled on my lap. We both yelped in pain, loudly.
The
noise distracted Dad for a moment. He looked into the rear-view mirror
and began yelling again when he realized Jon wasn't in position to watch
for our tail. "Get back up there, son. You can't quit. They'll get us
if you do.”
Dad
turned his head to see if Jon was complying, and the car began veering
to the right. We screamed.
"Watch the road," Jon shouted.
Dad
turned his head back and jerked the steering wheel to the left. We were
inches away from sideswiping a minivan. Then suddenly we were racing
into oncoming traffic. "Look out," Jon screamed again, as horns blared.
The other driver swerved in time, somehow, missing us by inches. Dad
corrected and swerved back into his lane. Jon slide down onto the seat
beside me and belted himself in.
Flashing blue and red lights filled the car. "Oh shit," said Dad. "It's a trick. They've got the cops in on it now, too.”
"No Dad," Jon said. "I can hear them on my radio. They're here to help us. Pull over.”
"It's a trick," Dad repeated and sped up again. "I'll lose them at the light.”
He
raced towards the intersection, where the traffic light signaled red.
"They think I'm going to stop," Dad said and started to laugh. "I'll
show them.”
The last thing I remember was Jon screaming "NOOO.”
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Thank you so much for your visit Terri -
if anyone missed Terri's interview she can be found on the last Red Carpet Day